I heard you fell. It's a hard thing. Everything looked like it was going right, everything seemed perfect, and one decision, one mistake, and now your whole world is crashing down around you.
You're ashamed, you say. That's good. It's a sign of contrition. Falling is serious. It hurts the knees. But while you're down there, go ahead and repent. It's good that you're ashamed, because you shouldn't be proud of your mistakes. But don't stay there. You can fall down, but you have to get back up. That's how you learn to walk.
This is a hard lesson. There are scars that come with falling. You will take something with you. Sometimes they're visible and everyone can see your scar. Some people will judge you, but they're the one's that don't matter. Those of us with hidden scars, we love you, and we're praying for you, and we want to see you back on your feet.
Micah 7:8 - "Rejoice not against me, O mine enemy; when I fall, I shall arise; when I sit in darkness, the LORD shall be a light unto me."
Right now, you're on your knees. Take some time there, for a little bit, to think about why you fell. Think about what brought you down. But don't spend too much time down there. It's time for you to get up and try again.
Proverbs 24:16 - "For a righteous man falls seven times, and rises again..."